Oh confidence, where are you?


About a month ago, I received a tweet about a “Call for Art.”  I love “Call for Art” announcements!  Like cranking the handle on a bubble gum machine you never know what you’re going to get….all sorts of organizations put out calls for art as a way to promote a campaign or event.  Like opening a present, I never know the gist of a call for art and until I open it up and take a closer look. 

This particular “Call for Art” was from ReSET, one of the many forward thinking organizations breathing life into the downtown Hartford and surrounding CT area.  ReSET is unique as it rises to the top of do-gooders.  It was born out of a computer IT’s vision for reconnecting the heart and soul of meaningful work with the business world. 

Eureka!  I launched the Gutsy Girl Club with a similiar intent.  This “Call for Art” felt more like a call for active duty in helping leverage the goodness in the world to new heights.  I slapped the 25th of the month deadline on my calendar and made a mental note that I had just over 3 weeks to be inspired to create a new piece of artwork.  The days quickly ticked by, then the moment came….a day before the October due date.  Perfect.  Nothing like a little pressure to roll my sleeves up and dive in. 

Global Oneness, a celebration honoring the individual connection we each have to the world around us was the inspiration I needed to give myself permission to play for the day.  I set aside my other “work obligations” and reveled in Global Oneness by swirling fingers in blobs of paint and slapping glue drenched papers freely across a wooden canvas.  Once the papers settled and the glue dried I sat back in awe.  Not necessarily at the art piece I created, although I was happy with the outcome, but more about what an incredibly freeing feeling the process brought about in me. 

Aha!  So this is what letting go of all preconceived ideas I have of myself can do!  How liberating! 

And exhausting at the same time!  The next day, the deadline for submitting to ReSET came and went.  I felt like the piece needed something more, though not sure what that something was. I didn’t want to force it and although feeling a twinge of disappointment for not finishing yet another piece, I still felt incredibly proud to have put all of myself into something. 

The weekend blew by, Monday, Tuesday passed.  Then Wed.  When Thursday morning got underway I found myself clicking on my favorite Pandora station – Alternative Indie Love Songs.  I’m not sure how or just why, but this little voice started talking to me and she said, “Take a risk.  You are worth second shot.  Call up ReSET and see if they will accept a late submission.”

This is the point in which confidence walked in the door.

By the time I found ReSET’s phone number Teddy Grieger was belting his “Confidence” lyrics in the background.  Coincidence? I think not.  By the time I dialed the number and Rosie, with an incredibly welcoming & inviting voice answered the call on the other end, I had “I’m gonna muster every ounce of confidence and cannonball into the water” transcending throughout my office.  Now, I’m not one to swear, but a Holy S*@T came across my mind as I thought to myself, I am totally doing this. 

Rosie let me know that she wasn’t sure about additional submissions and would have to get back with me.  I hung up the phone and thought for a split second, “well shucks, looks like I missed out.”  But the self pity was quickly swept away as an electrifying energy resonated through me as I realized what I had just done.  I cranked up Pandora which was now playing Snow Patrol’s “Run.”


“Light up, light up.

As if you have a choice

Even if you cannot hear my voice

I’ll be right beside you dear

Louder, louder

And we’ll run for our lives


Seriously?  Could the world speak to me any more clearly? 

I felt exhilarated and didn’t have a care in the world as to whether the art work would be accepted or not.  All this energy was born from the act of simply making the call! How about that? Backed by a mountain of confidence, I gave myself the second chance I needed.  I felt confident in the message I expressed in the art piece. I made was worth it, needed, and work I am doing and the art I created, I was able to give myself the second chance I needed. 


p.s. While cranking out this post, I received a response back - “Absolutely!!! Bring it by J”

I cried me some happy tears, put the finishing touches on my piece, and drove it on down to ReSET!  



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